Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Sunday, September 03, 2006
kasut baru
blan lepas aku order kasut kat akak aku....smalam kasut sampai...aku punye la seronot....aku pon ape lagik akak aku bagi je kotak kasut tu terus aku bukak nak try la....dah sarung kat kaki skali aku tgk burukkkknyee aku pakai....mcm kaki nyah....kaki aku ni jenis besar...gemok...buruk pakai kasut yg jenis runcing kat depan tu....kasut tu memang lawa....tak lawa kat kaki aku je ekekeke...aku bayar gak la rega kasut tu tp kasut tu aku kasik akak aku...tak rasa rugi pon atleast ade org pakai bukan aku buang pon...hikhik..
moral of the story....try dulu sblom beli!
moral of the story....try dulu sblom beli!
Sunday, August 13, 2006
aku rasa...
few days back....aku bgn bgn je dr tido, suddenly aku rasa rindu n kosong...kenape ah?biasanye aku ade perasaan camni time aku berstatuskan gf org....yela time tu logik la kalo kite tibe tibe rindu kat bf kitekan...tp skang aku takde bf....mak ayah ngan adik aku ade je kat umah...tp perasaan sunyi n rindu kan seseorang tu tibe tibe je dtg....aku rindu kat sham sebenanye....tibe tibe je aku rasa rindu kat dia...im trying to deny it...aku cube buat buat lupe...aku sebokkan diri ngan bersembang ngan mak ayah aku pasal benda benda lain tp deep down in my heart aku rasa....aku still ade rasa sayang kat dia....kenape ah?since my hp rosak ni...tiap kali aku check misscalled...takde pon dr no dia...i was hoping...ade misscalled dr dia....tp yillek...ehehe...agaknye dia pon dah move on ngan life dia....maybe dia pon buat buat busy.....ntah la kadang kadang aku rasa ade chemistry atr aku ngan dia....aku mcm bleh agak ape dia rasa...dan byk kali gak ape yg aku agak tu tepat....aku kadang kadang rasa dia mcm still sayangkan aku n berharap aku contact dia balik....kalo cite pasal couple months back...of coz aku tak eran pon nak call dia tp skang aku terasa mcm nak tanye kaba...paling bodo pon aku nak denga sore dia je then letak tepon balik....hmmm.....td adik aku cite dia eksiden....eksiden lagik...hummphh.....adik aku tau pon sbb member dia faiz tanye amir masa diorang lepak kat kedai burger amir....pastu amir ckp ko tanye la adik sayang dia...*he was talking about my bro actually*....adik aku plak cuba ngelak sian bebudak kat situ sume blur pasal ape plak amir suh tanye adik aku pasal sham....hummppph...aku igt amir dah tau aku break ngan sham...dia tatau rupenye...humpphh....
bile aku dok sorang tadi dlm bilik....b4 aku start typing ni...aku terpk...tah tah masa aku tibe2 rindu dia tu la dia eksiden....siannye....aku terkesan (pinjam ayat siti sat) sungguh la ngan dia ni....nape ah?bile org tanye nape aku bleh break ngan dia...aku bleh terdiam tatau nak jawap ape....bile org tanye siapa yg mintak break...aku senyap gak....he is just a typical guy....but there is something special about him....sampai skang ni kalo aku admirer kat mane mane lelaki pon mesti ade iras iras dia...nape ah?kadang kadang bkn aku sengaja pon....tak perasan tp bile aku tilik btol2 muke org org tu baru aku pasan ade iras muke dia....maybe aku tgh single ni aku takde sape...so perasaan aku kuat lg kat dia....mungkin la kalo aku ade bf baru nanti aku bleh lupe kat dia...so takde lagi perasaan syg kat dia....harap harap mcm tu...aku taknak kacau life dia...dan paling penting nyusahkan idop aku dgn masalah masalah.....
*harap2 dia ok skang ni*
bile aku dok sorang tadi dlm bilik....b4 aku start typing ni...aku terpk...tah tah masa aku tibe2 rindu dia tu la dia eksiden....siannye....aku terkesan (pinjam ayat siti sat) sungguh la ngan dia ni....nape ah?bile org tanye nape aku bleh break ngan dia...aku bleh terdiam tatau nak jawap ape....bile org tanye siapa yg mintak break...aku senyap gak....he is just a typical guy....but there is something special about him....sampai skang ni kalo aku admirer kat mane mane lelaki pon mesti ade iras iras dia...nape ah?kadang kadang bkn aku sengaja pon....tak perasan tp bile aku tilik btol2 muke org org tu baru aku pasan ade iras muke dia....maybe aku tgh single ni aku takde sape...so perasaan aku kuat lg kat dia....mungkin la kalo aku ade bf baru nanti aku bleh lupe kat dia...so takde lagi perasaan syg kat dia....harap harap mcm tu...aku taknak kacau life dia...dan paling penting nyusahkan idop aku dgn masalah masalah.....
*harap2 dia ok skang ni*
cite syok sendiri
yg ni kes kedua buat aku pelik....since aku keje kat tmpt aku skang ni...aku pasan ramai yg lelaki psycho...aku tatau samada aku je ke yg perasan camtu atopon sume org...bkn lelaki kat tmpt keje aku je tp kat mane mane yg ade lelaki (cop cop bkn sume lelaki la..ekekeke cam perasan plak...).......eh jap...aku rasa tak patut aku kategori kan sbg psycho....aku rasa baik aku kategorikan sbg 'misteri' ekekeke....sbb ape...aku perasan diorang senyum senyum kat aku....and trying so hard to get my attention...huh?aku bkn nak perasan ke ape tp nape skarang?aku dah berubah jadi shantek jelita kah?ke sbb aku dah kurus sket tp tang peyot menten bekeping kah?ke sbb rambut rebonding aku still tegak kejung kah?atopon sbb aku berstatuskan single n available kah?kalo tak pon sbb aku pakai seksi meksi?eh bile time pulak?...jenuh weh aku pk....tp aku rasa sume tak applicable langsung....so aku tanye la bapak aku nape benda ni sume jadik...bapak aku kate....skang ni byk kes pelik pelik....kene rogol kene bunuh kene ragut etc etc....pastu bapak aku kate...jgn sombong tp jgn plak tergedik gedik...kalo satu tmpt keje sembang ala carte je...takyah nak sembang meleret-leret...kalo terjumpe kat luar tmpt keje tu buat bodo je....jgn buat muke manis!hahahaha tergelak aku denga bapak aku ckp tang muke manis tu....yg aku pasan dan aku tau aku kalo time balik keje tu muke tarak manis....tinggal masham kelat je...hahaha....yela balik slalu je lambat tak penah nak sampai awal....dah tentu2 la aku penat...so dlm bas aku pon krohhh krehh krohh krehh...takde maknanye aku nak buat muke manis....bertambah sememeh ade la....
kenapa!kenapa!
*penin pale*
aku penah kate yg aku tak bape ngam ngan sorang amoi kat dlm dept. aku ni...yg peliknye after incident aku nangis kat pantry n to be exact after aku dah cite kat blog aku ni pasal dia...tibe tibe dia jadi baik ngan aku....dia ckp elok2 dan dia pon nak add aku dlm fs dia...pelik?tp aku taknak pk sgt why the sudden change tu....kire orait lah dia berbaik ngan aku sbb kitorang akan jumpe tiap tiap ari kat opis from now on....nak tak nak kene la berbaik baik....aku risau gak sbb dulu tu ke'kerek'an dia mencabar tahap kesabaran aku....sampai aku pon dah naik menyampah...tp spt biasa aku igtkan diri aku yg aku kene hormat dia...atas dasar 'senior'....tak kisah la...aku tak rugi ape kalo aku baik ngan org...dan skang ni aku dah dpt result yg memberangsang kan muahahaha....i dont lose anything... :)
skang ni plak, ade sorang trainee dlm dept. kitorang.....memule tu aku rasa dia ok...bleh ngam..tp lame lame aku rasa dia mcm poyo sgt...eh bkn mcm...mmg poyo....aku tatau la dia jadi camtu sbb dia anak sulung ke atopon tak penah lagi kene sound tepet ngan org pasal perangai dia tu...itu aku tataw...tp yg pasti dia slalu cari salah aku....aku salah pick up call ke...salah buat keje ke...eh sume lah dia tegur..mmg dia jenis suke perati aku buat keje sampai aku menggelabah....ade je yg tak kene....sume dia nak tegur....tensennye aku pompuan tu...smalam supervisor aku kate yg aku ni sopan orgnye...bkn dia puji aku sbenanye....dia saje melawak je...kitorang gelak gelak la...pastu bleh plak dia menyampuk kate 'eii dia blom tunjuk taring dia maaa'....eh pehal ko!aku terkedu jap dia ckp camtu....abis slama ni im being hypo la...oh puhhleassee.....aku perlu behave cam dia ke utk tak di categorize kan tak hypo...ckp kuat kuat...gelak kuat kuat....ckp mcm bagus ...erkkkkk sakitnye ati aku....dan yg paling best dia bleh ngumpat pasal aku kat salah sorang colleague aku kat situ...same same amoi so diorang cong ceng cong ceng pasal aku...ok la fine aku tak paham...but it doesnt mean aku tak paham sume....cesss....but i tend to be forgive n forget....tp arini dah takleh nak tahan dah...sbb tu aku cite kat sini....dia bleh suh aku anta uniform kat lndry lah ape lah....eh suke la baju aku lgpon aku br tuka...dia bleh kate ee ee...ceh mcm la dia bersih sgt...nyampah aku org over ni....aku mmg alergik ngan org poyo...nak nak lagi yg muda dr aku...trying to be matured kunun!yenadey.....
*updated* i've already forgiven u...hehe...
aku penah kate yg aku tak bape ngam ngan sorang amoi kat dlm dept. aku ni...yg peliknye after incident aku nangis kat pantry n to be exact after aku dah cite kat blog aku ni pasal dia...tibe tibe dia jadi baik ngan aku....dia ckp elok2 dan dia pon nak add aku dlm fs dia...pelik?tp aku taknak pk sgt why the sudden change tu....kire orait lah dia berbaik ngan aku sbb kitorang akan jumpe tiap tiap ari kat opis from now on....nak tak nak kene la berbaik baik....aku risau gak sbb dulu tu ke'kerek'an dia mencabar tahap kesabaran aku....sampai aku pon dah naik menyampah...tp spt biasa aku igtkan diri aku yg aku kene hormat dia...atas dasar 'senior'....tak kisah la...aku tak rugi ape kalo aku baik ngan org...dan skang ni aku dah dpt result yg memberangsang kan muahahaha....i dont lose anything... :)
skang ni plak, ade sorang trainee dlm dept. kitorang.....memule tu aku rasa dia ok...bleh ngam..tp lame lame aku rasa dia mcm poyo sgt...eh bkn mcm...mmg poyo....aku tatau la dia jadi camtu sbb dia anak sulung ke atopon tak penah lagi kene sound tepet ngan org pasal perangai dia tu...itu aku tataw...tp yg pasti dia slalu cari salah aku....aku salah pick up call ke...salah buat keje ke...eh sume lah dia tegur..mmg dia jenis suke perati aku buat keje sampai aku menggelabah....ade je yg tak kene....sume dia nak tegur....tensennye aku pompuan tu...smalam supervisor aku kate yg aku ni sopan orgnye...bkn dia puji aku sbenanye....dia saje melawak je...kitorang gelak gelak la...pastu bleh plak dia menyampuk kate 'eii dia blom tunjuk taring dia maaa'....eh pehal ko!aku terkedu jap dia ckp camtu....abis slama ni im being hypo la...oh puhhleassee.....aku perlu behave cam dia ke utk tak di categorize kan tak hypo...ckp kuat kuat...gelak kuat kuat....ckp mcm bagus ...erkkkkk sakitnye ati aku....dan yg paling best dia bleh ngumpat pasal aku kat salah sorang colleague aku kat situ...same same amoi so diorang cong ceng cong ceng pasal aku...ok la fine aku tak paham...but it doesnt mean aku tak paham sume....cesss....but i tend to be forgive n forget....tp arini dah takleh nak tahan dah...sbb tu aku cite kat sini....dia bleh suh aku anta uniform kat lndry lah ape lah....eh suke la baju aku lgpon aku br tuka...dia bleh kate ee ee...ceh mcm la dia bersih sgt...nyampah aku org over ni....aku mmg alergik ngan org poyo...nak nak lagi yg muda dr aku...trying to be matured kunun!yenadey.....
*updated* i've already forgiven u...hehe...
Saturday, July 15, 2006
its been a while
lamenye aku tak berblog...dlm masa aku hibernate ni mcm mcm benda jadi kat aku...dah dekat 2 bulan aku tak blogging rasanya...eh ye la...mmg 2 bulan pon kalo kira dr 2nd interview sampai skang ni...aku nak listkan what happens in 2 months time...
- aku keje kat renai as a part timer for the first month then aku naik jadik temp kat rsvn
- aku tak bgn lambat lagi dah sbb pagi pagi kan kene pegi keje wakakakakka
- aku berjaya sebokkan diri dr memikirkan hal hal tak berapa nak penting dlm idop aku
- my colleague sume best best (erk ade la sorang yg aku rasa cam bagus sket tp xpe masalah kecik je dia tu)
- aku sonok ngan life baru aku
- aku gi mane² even dlm dpmt aku sendiri pon tekejut bile tau aku dah 25 instead of 21 wakakakak
- diorang tak percaya aku takde bf (aku konpius pasaipa)
- aku terrrmenangis kat pantry sbb hal yg terrrrsangat down sbb ape yg aku plan dr awal taun tak menjadi dan aku rasa amat amat amat amat dissapointed...sebbek k.lynnie pujuk...
- aku fragile gile babeng (typical cancer)
- besday aku taun ni celebrate style ala koboi je...lepak kat mamak & tgk bola....dan yg paling sadis dgn BF ORG!haha...
- aku kuar ngan BF ORG!walopon aku tak ske dia dan kuar as a fren tp aku tetap kuar ngan dia...BERDUA!aku takde feeling meeling kat dia...at this moment ler...tp i can see that he likes me...asik call ajak kuar....tp dia tetap BF ORG!wakakakak..
- aku suke tgk mamat kat tmpt keje aku tu....tak hensem mane tak tinggi pon tp he got a plus point sbb dia bijak sbb pd aku lelaki yg bijak ni sexy wakakakaka....plus plus plus he got a sweet smile...eh serius kalo org tgk dia takde hensem mane pon tp pada aku dia tersangat sweet :P (i wonder how old is he ikikiki)
- ade crisis dlm family...melibatkan adik ngan kakak² aku...aku takde kene mengena dlm ini pelem..
to be continued....
Thursday, May 25, 2006
keroje
on the way nak gi bakal tmpt keje aku tu...perkara yg paling merisaukan aku ialah lintas jalan...situ simpang empat..mmg byk keta lalu lalang....kang tak pepasal kalo aku leka sgt jadi benda yg choiiiii mintak di jauhkan la....second aku risau ialah member aku kate situ byk kes ragut...org selamba je ragut handbag pastu cabut...dia pesan kat aku jgn dok tergedik gedik lintas jalan mcm model...handbag tu pegang btol btol....third benda aku risau ialah...org yg bawak keta/moto/bas/lori/teksi tak kisah la janji kenderaan....aku malu sebenonye nak lintas jalan tu...segan kalo org pandang aku...ni pon kategori risau gak...aku kalo org pandang pandang je mesti tak btol step aku tu hahhaha...silap ariblan aku terpeleot ke/tersadung ke tak ke malu...aduiii ni pon mintak dijauhkan...
aku gi 3rd interview aku ari selasa aritu kol 3....aku kene interview ngan director revenue management...serius aku eran campo pelik...apesey bersusah payah beno aku di interview mcm aku apply post manager ni?soalan yg same di tanye tp nape aku perlu jumpe director...aku pelik sampai arini...dlm pelik pelik tu pon aku teringat gak kakak aku ckp...memandangkan post yg diorang offer aku ni takde dlm ads jadi for sure la takde vancancy dlm department tu...kalo diorang offer kat aku tu maknanye diorang kena allocate salary utk aku...so kan ke dah bertambah allocation salary diorang...so bile aku pk pk balik,aku rasa,jawapan yg ni munasabah,maybe sbb tu aku kene jumpe director bagai,tak kisah la.janji aku dah dpt keje.first interview aku pegi dgn jayanya...aku rasa sonok sbb walopon keje clerk je tp aku lepas,mase diorang interview diorang buat muke muke gumbira tp aku tatau ape yg ade dlm pale otak diorang time tu,mr jonathan tu je buat muke blur tambah cuak aku...mase aku jawap ape dia tanye tu aku sempat lg otak aku ligat berpk ape perception dia kat aku....ntah ape dia pk dlm pale dia...mesti dia kate budak ni kuat cong je abuk pon tarak...uwaa takutnye aku...tp bile dah abis interview sume...aku lega...tp still aku masih tak puas ati ngan ape aku jawap td...walopon aku dpt tp aku taktau lg bile aku kene start keje...mr jonathan kate ms karen tepon kendian confirm pasal hal hal tu sume...
arini ms karen tepon confirm kan hal hal yg patut di confirmkan...so 5th june aku start jadi pekerja hotel dgn jayanye..hehehe...
aku gi 3rd interview aku ari selasa aritu kol 3....aku kene interview ngan director revenue management...serius aku eran campo pelik...apesey bersusah payah beno aku di interview mcm aku apply post manager ni?soalan yg same di tanye tp nape aku perlu jumpe director...aku pelik sampai arini...dlm pelik pelik tu pon aku teringat gak kakak aku ckp...memandangkan post yg diorang offer aku ni takde dlm ads jadi for sure la takde vancancy dlm department tu...kalo diorang offer kat aku tu maknanye diorang kena allocate salary utk aku...so kan ke dah bertambah allocation salary diorang...so bile aku pk pk balik,aku rasa,jawapan yg ni munasabah,maybe sbb tu aku kene jumpe director bagai,tak kisah la.janji aku dah dpt keje.first interview aku pegi dgn jayanya...aku rasa sonok sbb walopon keje clerk je tp aku lepas,mase diorang interview diorang buat muke muke gumbira tp aku tatau ape yg ade dlm pale otak diorang time tu,mr jonathan tu je buat muke blur tambah cuak aku...mase aku jawap ape dia tanye tu aku sempat lg otak aku ligat berpk ape perception dia kat aku....ntah ape dia pk dlm pale dia...mesti dia kate budak ni kuat cong je abuk pon tarak...uwaa takutnye aku...tp bile dah abis interview sume...aku lega...tp still aku masih tak puas ati ngan ape aku jawap td...walopon aku dpt tp aku taktau lg bile aku kene start keje...mr jonathan kate ms karen tepon kendian confirm pasal hal hal tu sume...
arini ms karen tepon confirm kan hal hal yg patut di confirmkan...so 5th june aku start jadi pekerja hotel dgn jayanye..hehehe...
Saturday, May 20, 2006
interview n ayah aku...
aritu aku gi interview kat renaissance hotel kl....ayah ngan mak aku anta...tp anta depan hotel tu je..pastu aku suh diorang balik...kalo ikutkan aku nak gi sendiri sbb aku nak adventure...hehehe dan kekonon nak berdikari....aku nak merasa buat keje sendiri...hal aku aku la settle...tp prblmnye ayah aku mcm risau dan tak percaya kan anak anak dia...so dia akan bersusah payah untuk anak anak dia walopon time tu dia sakit demam tak sihat atopon ade keje lain....dia akan cari masa gak untuk settlekan hal anak anak dia...aku hargai susah payah ayah aku tp...kadang kadang tu trust lah anak anak ni...kitorang kadang kadang ade keupayaan kemampuan utk settle hal tu sendiri tp sbbkan ayah aku tak percaya kat anak anak dia jadi kitorang pon dah set dlm mind kitorang yg kitorang ni memang tak mampu buat something tanpa bantuan dia...tak sihat kan camtu....ade org bgtau ayah aku biarkan anak anak buat keputusan sendiri...biar anak anak rasa kegagalan drpd keputusan yg dibuat.....biar anak anak rasa kejayaan yg kitorang dpt hasil dr susah payah kitorang sendiri...sbb belajar dr pengalaman adalah pelajaran yg sgt berharga dlm idop....tp ayah aku lain....dia takut kitorang terpesong,terjatuh,kecewa,marah,dia takut kitorang gagal....dia terlampau sayangkan anak anak dia sampai dia terlampau control life anak anak dia....walopon agak merimaskan/mengjengkelkan tp ini tandanye aku ade ayah yg sayangkan anak anak dia...thanks apak!
pasal interview aku tu...aku siap study bagai nak rak pasal hotel tu...pastu siap ckp ngan cermin lagi hapal dialog bagai hahaha...pastu aku masuk forum cari semate mate nak dpt tips gi interview...aku buat mcm aku nak gi interview post best best je....tp sebenanye aku gi interview keje front office clerk....aku siap pk nak pakai ape...kasut ape...matching ke tak...aku tanye akak aku mcm mcm...sebbek akak aku tak boring layan....aku siap pk soalan soalan bakal di tanye...pastu aku siap print tips kat forum cari....best best tips diorang...aku bace byk kali...so aku create soalan yg bleh ditanye based on aku laa..pastu esoknye mase aku kene interview tup tup diorang kasik aku soalan yg aku create tu...walopon aku dah ade jawapan dlm pale otak tp disbbkan nervous sume jawapan aku terabur ke laut huhuhuhu....walopon aku takdpt front office tu tp aku dpt keje bhgn reservation tu...tp itu kate hr manager ngan reservation manager tu...blom aku jumpe org yg ketiga bakal interview aku tu....ntah hape dia nak tanye...aku takut nanti dia kate anda tak layak!sile balik!ekekekek...sedih aku...mau aku nangis depan dia...kehkehkeh
pasal interview aku tu...aku siap study bagai nak rak pasal hotel tu...pastu siap ckp ngan cermin lagi hapal dialog bagai hahaha...pastu aku masuk forum cari semate mate nak dpt tips gi interview...aku buat mcm aku nak gi interview post best best je....tp sebenanye aku gi interview keje front office clerk....aku siap pk nak pakai ape...kasut ape...matching ke tak...aku tanye akak aku mcm mcm...sebbek akak aku tak boring layan....aku siap pk soalan soalan bakal di tanye...pastu aku siap print tips kat forum cari....best best tips diorang...aku bace byk kali...so aku create soalan yg bleh ditanye based on aku laa..pastu esoknye mase aku kene interview tup tup diorang kasik aku soalan yg aku create tu...walopon aku dah ade jawapan dlm pale otak tp disbbkan nervous sume jawapan aku terabur ke laut huhuhuhu....walopon aku takdpt front office tu tp aku dpt keje bhgn reservation tu...tp itu kate hr manager ngan reservation manager tu...blom aku jumpe org yg ketiga bakal interview aku tu....ntah hape dia nak tanye...aku takut nanti dia kate anda tak layak!sile balik!ekekekek...sedih aku...mau aku nangis depan dia...kehkehkeh
Friday, May 19, 2006
mother's day
aritu sambut mother's day kat church....sonok woo...sume mak mak org dpt hadiah rantai tp pendant je lain lain..husband kene bg wife hadiah tu pastu kene amik gamba....dlm ramai ramai suami isteri....mak ngan ayah aku paling sporting...aku jerit dr tepi suruh peluk mase amik gamba...terus mak aku peluk ayah aku...comel je diorang....mak aku ni rendah je cam aku,ayah aku plak pesen tinggi....mcm cute je diorang peluk camtu...sume gelak gelak...pastu turn org lain plak...ade yg amik gamba kontrol cun,ade yg amik gamba biasa biasa,ade yg amik gamba malu malu,ade yg amik gamba mcm amik gamba ic hehehe,lawak mcm mcm posing,tp yg paling kelakar time bg hadiah utk org yg tak dtg...so kene anta wakil la...ade yg kene wakilkan mak ayag diorang so kene la carik fake husband...pet dpt sekali dua fake husband sbb wakilkan mak ayah dia ngan abg ngan kakak ipar dia...marisa kene wakilkan abg ngan kakak ipar dia...aku plak kene jadik fake wife roya!hahaha...kitorang posing gile gile...sume gelak..aku ni kalo dtg angin gile gile aku mmg cam org tak btol je perangai aku....aku bleh buat selamba badak je...hehe...
aku jarang camni...kalo ngan org aku rapat je aku tak kontrol...sbb aku ni pemalu org nye akakakakak...pemalu yg tak membawa kebaikan sampai kene komen dek abg angkat ayah aku,uncle rob...hehehe...dia ckp malu tu bagus..tp terlampau malu tu stupid..aduhhh kene sejibik...padan muke aku....mcm mcm dia nasihat...sume baik baik belaka...sampai aku tergelak denga nasihat dia...aku suke denga nasihat org yg pandai menasihat org....dia tak marah marah...takde unsur unsur berlagak/poyo/kerek dlm nasihat dia...dia selitkan unsur lawak dan tauladan dlm nasihat dia....org mcm ni slalu buat aku berfikir dan aku akan igt nasihat dia....aku tak rapat ngan uncle rob tp aku rasa dia dah mcm uncle aku sendiri...mcm saudara kandung ayah aku dah....walopon dia omputih...bertitle kan professor...dah jenuh keliling dunia...kaya...pandai dan segala galanya...tp deep down dia masih org biasa biasa mcm aku jugak...ayah aku sayang kan uncle rob mcm abg dia sendiri...aku pasan dia sayangkan uncle rob lebih dr pakcik aku...abg ayah aku la...pakcik aku pon tak serapat mcm tu ngan ayah aku...
mase kitorang buat mother's day tu...aku kesian sgt kat kak ani...semua org dpt hadiah dr husband tp dia dpt dr anak dia...aku pasan gak dia cam nangis mate merah....sian kan...kak ani ni serupa cm mak aku...kemane mesti ngan laki dia...skang laki dia takde dia sorang sorang...aku tak dpt bayangkan mcmane kalo benda tu jadi kat aku atopon mak aku...aku taknak pk tp benda ni kan lumrah hidup....aku penah tgk ayah aku mcm tak btol je bile mak aku balik kg....kejap kejap dia kuar...kejap kejap dia gi kedai...pastu ajak aku ngan adik aku makan kat luar....lepak mamak malam malam....manede dia buat camtu kalo mak aku ade kat umah....mak aku ajak kuar pon dia bleh marah marah bebel bebel kate buang duit lah apelah.....hehehe....sayang beno ayah aku kat mak aku....diorang mcm belangkas....tak sah kalo takde salah sorang kalo gi mane mane....aku sayang mak ngan ayah aku....walopon diorang penah claim diorang bkn parents yg bagus tp pada aku DIORANG HADIAH TERBAIK dr Tuhan....thanks lord
aku jarang camni...kalo ngan org aku rapat je aku tak kontrol...sbb aku ni pemalu org nye akakakakak...pemalu yg tak membawa kebaikan sampai kene komen dek abg angkat ayah aku,uncle rob...hehehe...dia ckp malu tu bagus..tp terlampau malu tu stupid..aduhhh kene sejibik...padan muke aku....mcm mcm dia nasihat...sume baik baik belaka...sampai aku tergelak denga nasihat dia...aku suke denga nasihat org yg pandai menasihat org....dia tak marah marah...takde unsur unsur berlagak/poyo/kerek dlm nasihat dia...dia selitkan unsur lawak dan tauladan dlm nasihat dia....org mcm ni slalu buat aku berfikir dan aku akan igt nasihat dia....aku tak rapat ngan uncle rob tp aku rasa dia dah mcm uncle aku sendiri...mcm saudara kandung ayah aku dah....walopon dia omputih...bertitle kan professor...dah jenuh keliling dunia...kaya...pandai dan segala galanya...tp deep down dia masih org biasa biasa mcm aku jugak...ayah aku sayang kan uncle rob mcm abg dia sendiri...aku pasan dia sayangkan uncle rob lebih dr pakcik aku...abg ayah aku la...pakcik aku pon tak serapat mcm tu ngan ayah aku...
mase kitorang buat mother's day tu...aku kesian sgt kat kak ani...semua org dpt hadiah dr husband tp dia dpt dr anak dia...aku pasan gak dia cam nangis mate merah....sian kan...kak ani ni serupa cm mak aku...kemane mesti ngan laki dia...skang laki dia takde dia sorang sorang...aku tak dpt bayangkan mcmane kalo benda tu jadi kat aku atopon mak aku...aku taknak pk tp benda ni kan lumrah hidup....aku penah tgk ayah aku mcm tak btol je bile mak aku balik kg....kejap kejap dia kuar...kejap kejap dia gi kedai...pastu ajak aku ngan adik aku makan kat luar....lepak mamak malam malam....manede dia buat camtu kalo mak aku ade kat umah....mak aku ajak kuar pon dia bleh marah marah bebel bebel kate buang duit lah apelah.....hehehe....sayang beno ayah aku kat mak aku....diorang mcm belangkas....tak sah kalo takde salah sorang kalo gi mane mane....aku sayang mak ngan ayah aku....walopon diorang penah claim diorang bkn parents yg bagus tp pada aku DIORANG HADIAH TERBAIK dr Tuhan....thanks lord
Thursday, May 11, 2006
tatau nak letak tajuk ape
hell0 mr bloggy ('',)
aku takde idea nak ceretet ape dlm blog aku kali nih..tp aku nak gak update life aku dlm ni sbb aku takmo lupe satu perkara pon yg berlaku dlm idop aku...minggu lepas aku terserempak ngan zul(bestfren sham),mase tu aku ngan herry nak gi photostat ic kat kedai nathan...dia plak time tu atas moto nak gi mane tah,terserempak ngan aku je dia bleh benti jap pastu patah balik...aku ngan herry sengih je...aku tau balik ni mesti dia cite kat sham yg dia jumpe aku dan ntah ape lagi yg diorang dok bercerita pasal aku...lantak ko lah!org yg takde kene mengena ngan idop aku nih ko nak ckp ape ke nak buat ape ke aku sket pon tak pedulik..mmg aku buat style ati kering la...yela buat ape aku nak susah ati pasal org len, diri aku sendiri pon dah cukup bermasalah....tup tup 2 ari lepas sham call aku pagi pagi...kire pagi² la kol 9 tu kan hehe...aku mase tu masih dok berselimut lg haha...mcm biasa la tanye kabar sume etc etc....pastu dia siap kate nak jumpe aku...huh?ape hal plak dia ni...aku ckp yg aku malas nak jumpe aku ade byk keje dan aku balik lambat blablabla...senang cite aku buat alasan la..last last battery aku kong...huhu pandai berlakon lak battery hp aku nih...dan aku pon sambung tido balik..hehehe..
apelagik yg penting...ermm ade benda yg penting tp aku dah confirm dpt baru aku update kat sini...
aku takde idea nak ceretet ape dlm blog aku kali nih..tp aku nak gak update life aku dlm ni sbb aku takmo lupe satu perkara pon yg berlaku dlm idop aku...minggu lepas aku terserempak ngan zul(bestfren sham),mase tu aku ngan herry nak gi photostat ic kat kedai nathan...dia plak time tu atas moto nak gi mane tah,terserempak ngan aku je dia bleh benti jap pastu patah balik...aku ngan herry sengih je...aku tau balik ni mesti dia cite kat sham yg dia jumpe aku dan ntah ape lagi yg diorang dok bercerita pasal aku...lantak ko lah!org yg takde kene mengena ngan idop aku nih ko nak ckp ape ke nak buat ape ke aku sket pon tak pedulik..mmg aku buat style ati kering la...yela buat ape aku nak susah ati pasal org len, diri aku sendiri pon dah cukup bermasalah....tup tup 2 ari lepas sham call aku pagi pagi...kire pagi² la kol 9 tu kan hehe...aku mase tu masih dok berselimut lg haha...mcm biasa la tanye kabar sume etc etc....pastu dia siap kate nak jumpe aku...huh?ape hal plak dia ni...aku ckp yg aku malas nak jumpe aku ade byk keje dan aku balik lambat blablabla...senang cite aku buat alasan la..last last battery aku kong...huhu pandai berlakon lak battery hp aku nih...dan aku pon sambung tido balik..hehehe..
apelagik yg penting...ermm ade benda yg penting tp aku dah confirm dpt baru aku update kat sini...
Saturday, May 06, 2006
biarlah rahsia
Pernahkah kau bermimpi seketika
Berada ditempatku
Membayangkan pahit manis berlalu
Entah siapa yang tahu
Mungkin nanti kau jua merasakan
Berdepan dengan kata yang menyesakkan
Takkan tugumu kebal
Tiada pertimbangan
Keheningan malam membangunkan
Kepayahan jiwa meluahkan
Andai kau jujur memahami
Tiadaku menjauhi
Dan kisahku yang masih panjang
Menambahkan berat yang memandang
Lantasku pendam
Kuputuskan biarlah rahsia
Semakin aku hidup dalam cinta
Tiada kuasa mampu menghalangnya
Hentikan kata-kata
Bertulangkan dusta
Pernahkah kau bermimpi seketika
Berada ditempatku...
6 days ago...
Hi mr bloggy (**,)
dah lame aku tak update blog...6 ari tu cukup lame dah untuk aku ceritekan balik ape yg dah jadi...kalo aku muatkan dlm satu entry yg same dah jadi cam rojak mapley dah,kan mr bloggy kan...entry ni aku lebih nak summarize 6 ari punye cite...before that i should say Thank you Lord...aku lalui 6 ari yg cukup tenang,bleh senyum,mimpi yg indah²,no worries,aku bleh bercakap straight to the point..satu perkara yg agak sukar aku buat sbb aku kalau nak sampaikan ape saje dr dlm ati aku selalu je tak sampai....selalu kuar tajuk...sbb dlm proses nak menceritakan tu aku sering pk mcm²...bile keadaan camtu jadi...aku jadik kelam-kabut...selalu sgt benda ni jadi...
salah satu cara aku nak luahkan ape yg terbuku dlm ati aku(eceyyy mcm novel plak) ialah tulis segala ape yg aku rasa kat atas kertas then bakar,aku citekan pada org yg bleh paham atau kenal sape aku jadi ini memudahkan diorang paham ape aku nak sampaikan,aku berdoa sambil nangis²...
bape ari lepas aku cite pasal financial barring/outstanding balances aku...betapa susahnye ati aku masa tu...cite kat org pon org takleh tolong...ape aku buat aku diamkan je...cite kat parents urghh tak sanggup aku...tak sampai ati...tp 6 ari yg lepas sblom exam start dan pada masa yg sama aku start practical training,sumenye dlm keadaan smooth...aku handle problem ngan relax...tade jiwa kacau...org disekeliling motivated me...n yes im motivated after that...enthusiasm kate kakak aku...tetibe aku ade semangat nak handle problem aku...life aku...takde org lain except God...
walopon aku takleh masuk exam...dan aku bakal menghadapi 6 exam(6 lagik...)sekaligus pd short sem depan...aku orait lg...let bygone be bygone...aku pk pasal fees aku dulu...baru aku settle yg lain²...slow²...man(coursemate aku) jumpe dean bba ciklan....ciklan bg nasihat kat man then man sampaikan kat aku ape yg ciklan bgtau...ciklan ckp kadang² kite kena lalui path idop kite...kite tak perasan ape yg kite buat tu berpunca dr silap kite sendiri,kalau tidak pon...laluilah ngan tenang,be a man...kate ciklan kat man...pekataan be a man tu(walopon aku pompuan)aku rasa dah cukup buat aku relief..btol!ape yg ciklan kate tu mmg ade btol nye...
aku sebok bercerite kat member² aku sume aku takdpt masuk exam...bile aku pk balik...kalo aku tak amik skarang bknnye aku fail...n i have time to study...n i have time to work...tak semestinye diorang dah amik final diorang bleh score...lgpon kalo aku marah² maki² unitar silap tu berpunca dr aku...mmg salah aku...kalopon aku dikire malang...aku malang sbb takleh convo taun ni,aku takleh teruskan practical aku(ni yg paling aku kesal) tu je...takpe bkn aku takleh convo taun depan dan bukannye aku takleh practical pon nanti...
aku dah tulis letter yg aku nak postpone practical training...aku kaw tim ngan kak liza n kak liza pon tolong aku(syukurnye ade org yg masih paham situasi aku)pastu kak liza call manager hr encik din bgtau pasal problem aku dan cik din kate its okay...nanti u dtg buat practical u balik ye...aduh tetibe aku rasa mcm aku dihargai...ade je org baik² keliling aku ni...wujud rupanya...kak liza offer aku buat part time kat tempat practical aku tu aku terima je...time ni aku takleh berkira...aku yg nak keje aku nak duit...so aku kene carik keje bkn keje carik aku...aku takleh demand skang ni...aku kene grab je ape² offer....adam(member chat aku)penah nasihat kat aku...kalo buat keje ati mesti kene ikhlas..jgn bersungut buat keje, ati kene bersih...susah sikit takpe...nanti ko dpt ganjaran yg ko tak sangka²...aku simpan kate² adam tu...thanks adam!
tpkan dlm 6 arini gak la...aku ade buat keje jahat!maha hebat!haha...aku nyesal gak tp benda dah lepas nak buek camno...aku erkk tah taktau nak ckp pe...hehe biarlah...
oh before i end my meroyan aku nak cite pasal 'horror'scope aku arini...aku rasa mcm kene ngan aku je...eh bukan aku kate nak stop baca 'horror'scope ke?wakakakak ckp tak serupa bikin...
The Bottom Line
You may be required to accept things as they are -- you've gone as far as you can.
In Detail
There is a real freedom in letting go, so why don't you give it a whirl today? You've been motivated by good things, but your ideas and input are falling on deaf ears. Save your energy for someone who really wants to hear what you have to say -- and accept the fact that some people have to walk their own path in their own way. You've done as much as you can for now. Set yourself free from the obligations and responsibilities you've been imposing on yourself.
dah lame aku tak update blog...6 ari tu cukup lame dah untuk aku ceritekan balik ape yg dah jadi...kalo aku muatkan dlm satu entry yg same dah jadi cam rojak mapley dah,kan mr bloggy kan...entry ni aku lebih nak summarize 6 ari punye cite...before that i should say Thank you Lord...aku lalui 6 ari yg cukup tenang,bleh senyum,mimpi yg indah²,no worries,aku bleh bercakap straight to the point..satu perkara yg agak sukar aku buat sbb aku kalau nak sampaikan ape saje dr dlm ati aku selalu je tak sampai....selalu kuar tajuk...sbb dlm proses nak menceritakan tu aku sering pk mcm²...bile keadaan camtu jadi...aku jadik kelam-kabut...selalu sgt benda ni jadi...
salah satu cara aku nak luahkan ape yg terbuku dlm ati aku(eceyyy mcm novel plak) ialah tulis segala ape yg aku rasa kat atas kertas then bakar,aku citekan pada org yg bleh paham atau kenal sape aku jadi ini memudahkan diorang paham ape aku nak sampaikan,aku berdoa sambil nangis²...
bape ari lepas aku cite pasal financial barring/outstanding balances aku...betapa susahnye ati aku masa tu...cite kat org pon org takleh tolong...ape aku buat aku diamkan je...cite kat parents urghh tak sanggup aku...tak sampai ati...tp 6 ari yg lepas sblom exam start dan pada masa yg sama aku start practical training,sumenye dlm keadaan smooth...aku handle problem ngan relax...tade jiwa kacau...org disekeliling motivated me...n yes im motivated after that...enthusiasm kate kakak aku...tetibe aku ade semangat nak handle problem aku...life aku...takde org lain except God...
walopon aku takleh masuk exam...dan aku bakal menghadapi 6 exam(6 lagik...)sekaligus pd short sem depan...aku orait lg...let bygone be bygone...aku pk pasal fees aku dulu...baru aku settle yg lain²...slow²...man(coursemate aku) jumpe dean bba ciklan....ciklan bg nasihat kat man then man sampaikan kat aku ape yg ciklan bgtau...ciklan ckp kadang² kite kena lalui path idop kite...kite tak perasan ape yg kite buat tu berpunca dr silap kite sendiri,kalau tidak pon...laluilah ngan tenang,be a man...kate ciklan kat man...pekataan be a man tu(walopon aku pompuan)aku rasa dah cukup buat aku relief..btol!ape yg ciklan kate tu mmg ade btol nye...
aku sebok bercerite kat member² aku sume aku takdpt masuk exam...bile aku pk balik...kalo aku tak amik skarang bknnye aku fail...n i have time to study...n i have time to work...tak semestinye diorang dah amik final diorang bleh score...lgpon kalo aku marah² maki² unitar silap tu berpunca dr aku...mmg salah aku...kalopon aku dikire malang...aku malang sbb takleh convo taun ni,aku takleh teruskan practical aku(ni yg paling aku kesal) tu je...takpe bkn aku takleh convo taun depan dan bukannye aku takleh practical pon nanti...
aku dah tulis letter yg aku nak postpone practical training...aku kaw tim ngan kak liza n kak liza pon tolong aku(syukurnye ade org yg masih paham situasi aku)pastu kak liza call manager hr encik din bgtau pasal problem aku dan cik din kate its okay...nanti u dtg buat practical u balik ye...aduh tetibe aku rasa mcm aku dihargai...ade je org baik² keliling aku ni...wujud rupanya...kak liza offer aku buat part time kat tempat practical aku tu aku terima je...time ni aku takleh berkira...aku yg nak keje aku nak duit...so aku kene carik keje bkn keje carik aku...aku takleh demand skang ni...aku kene grab je ape² offer....adam(member chat aku)penah nasihat kat aku...kalo buat keje ati mesti kene ikhlas..jgn bersungut buat keje, ati kene bersih...susah sikit takpe...nanti ko dpt ganjaran yg ko tak sangka²...aku simpan kate² adam tu...thanks adam!
tpkan dlm 6 arini gak la...aku ade buat keje jahat!maha hebat!haha...aku nyesal gak tp benda dah lepas nak buek camno...aku erkk tah taktau nak ckp pe...hehe biarlah...
oh before i end my meroyan aku nak cite pasal 'horror'scope aku arini...aku rasa mcm kene ngan aku je...eh bukan aku kate nak stop baca 'horror'scope ke?wakakakak ckp tak serupa bikin...
The Bottom Line
You may be required to accept things as they are -- you've gone as far as you can.
In Detail
There is a real freedom in letting go, so why don't you give it a whirl today? You've been motivated by good things, but your ideas and input are falling on deaf ears. Save your energy for someone who really wants to hear what you have to say -- and accept the fact that some people have to walk their own path in their own way. You've done as much as you can for now. Set yourself free from the obligations and responsibilities you've been imposing on yourself.
Monday, May 01, 2006
hebatnye...
aku tak buat ape sgt arini,aku sampai dr tapah ke kl lebih kurang pukul 1 tghari...sampai² je benda(benda ke?) pertama yg aku dan adik aku carik,mary(anak kucen kitorang la)...sian mary,baru dua ari kene tinggal dah kurus dia...pastu dia nyorok kat umah makcik aku...siannye...makcik aku ckp dia nangis² tiap malam...apetaknye malam² dia slalu tdo ngan mak ngan ayah aku..asal kitorang makan dia pon nak makan same...letak je bekas makanan dia dekat ngan kitorang berselera je dia makan...mcm baby je dia...sayangnye aku kat mary...dlm penat² dan ngantuk layan dia rasa ilang sume tekanan...
aktiviti aku takde ape sgt arini...aku masuk bilik je igt nak buat taik mata...tp bile dah jumpe pc mmg aku akan online la walocemane penat skalipon...aku online sejam dua sambil sms ngan zol...pastu aku baring² teruss kroohhhh krehhhh kroohhh krehhhh tak sedar hape....sedar² je aku denga bunyi hp aku...tgk bob call...malas aku nak angkat...aku takmo buat dia berharap...aku takmo dipanggil heartbreaker...dahla...experience yg lepas² tu buat aku pk dua kali sblom aku buat pape...lebih² lg hal berkaitan ngan hati ngan perasaan ni...maybe pada aku ape yg aku buat tu btol tp tak pada org lain pulak...kadang² susah nak jangka ape yg org lain pk dan rasa...
mase aku sms ngan zol...zol basekan diri dia abg...rasa pelik sbb aku kene basekan diri aku,saya,hehe...aku tak penah bersopan bile bersembang ngan zol tetibe aku kene ubahkan sume tu sbb dia basekan abg...lgpon patut kot aku blaja hormati dia sbb dia dah 30+ pon...bape plus aku tatau...aku tanye tp dia tak jawap...dia jawap pon main²...bleh plak dia kate jap 33 jap 30 jap 31...byk btol besday dia...dia sorang lahir byk kali...ehehhe...biarlah dia...ade benda kene rahsia...ikut org la ape dia nak rahsia btol tak....
mase aku tido,aku mimpi balik ape yg mak aku bebelkan kat aku smalam...erkk sabtu malam aritu...bapak aku siap nak ceraikan mak aku pasal tu...lawaknye aku sikit pon tak sedih tp aku menyokong plak tindakan bapak aku tu...adaka patut!
aku bgn dlm kol 9.30 mlm kot...aku terjaga pon sbb adik aku ketuk pintu mintak duit dia...dia nak gi makan kat kedai so aku pon suh dia tunggu aku,aku nak ikut skali...aku cuci muke gosok gigi lelaju pastu sikat rambut terus kuar ngan adik aku...kitorang makan kat kedai mek kelate
balik dr makan,aku online balik...aku surf ape yg patut..aku rasa boring nak mampos but still aku merewang dlm internet ni carik ape aku tatau...sume blog aku masuk...bace ape yg patut...pastu aku masuk blog sherita...beso pekataan no entry dia...ahaii ape aku nak baca ni...pastu aku scroll bawah blog dia aku teringat kat blog ava goddess...dia pon tak update blog dia gak...aku dah mule sesak napas...ape aku nak baca nih(matilaa exam ari rabu kate takde ape nak baca)*hikhik aku suke btol ayat ponen ni...
last² aku teringat kat blog yna...last aku masuk blog dia ade entry pasal arwah adik dia...hmm...yna yg ilang someone yg dia sayang tp aku yg rasa sedihnye...penyedih btol aku ni...aku sedih je tp tak nangis...yna update blog...aku baca sampai part dia baca blog pemuda blabla...ntah aku lupe ayat dia tp aku igt dia kate blog pemuda tu je...aku baca abis entry yna tu...pastu aku click kat pemuda tu nye blog plak..
pemuda ni rupenye dah meninggal.....hatikubicara.blogspot.com itu dia punye add blog dia..aku bace sume entry dia except review pasal movie ngan lirik lagu ngan poem ke ape tah...aku tak larat nak baca sbb base indonesia ni tak bape nak same ngan base melayu...bleh kate pusing gak la nak paham...tp arwah ni peminat setia filem ngan lagu² indon...kalo dah minat sudah tentu dia paham jalan cerita filem ngan lirik lagu yg dia tgh hayati...mmg mendalam maksud dia...utk org yg paham akan pahamlah...byk cerita pasal kesedihan dan kekecewaan dia(arwah lee)...memang kena ngan kaler blog dia...kaler itam..gloomy...dr ape yg aku baca,aku rasa kesal sbb dia pilih jalan yg salah utk selesaikan masalah...ntah nape aku sendiri tak terpikir nak selesaikan masalah aku mcm tu...syukur la aku waras lg dlm umur aku nak mencapai suku abad ni...syukur jugak tuhan sayangkan aku...
sume org penah lalui first love ni...aku pon....first love aku dgn husband org!yg aku tau status dia after a year aku couple...bayangkanlah...tp aku bleh moved on ngan idop aku walopon seksa....aku jadik rangka bergerak jap...kurus keding aku....sian je mcm mak bapak tak bagi makan je...tp bkn la aku salahkan dia...tak...tp aku tekejut tindakan drastik dia sploh taun yg lepas...skarang baru aku paham kenapa org kate kalau sayangkan org tinggal sikit sayang pada diri sendiri sbb kalau dikecewakan takde la merana sgt....sayang diri sendiri baru sayang org lain...skarang aku paham...
dlm byk² lagu yg dia suke tu aku ade satu dlm mp3list aku...lagu agnes monica & ahmad dhani cinta mati...serius aku dload lagu ni dulu bukan sbb aku suke...sbb aku tgk ramai yg dload kat #mp3zs...aku pon gatal dload gak...bila aku denga sikit pon takleh nak masuk dlm tinge aku...mmg aku tak minat la....tp bile aku terbaca dlm blog dia ade lagu ni aku terus denga balik lg tu...sah!aku mmg tak minat....aku takpaham ape yg cuba diceritakan oleh lagu tu...aku denga lagu tu sambil baca blog dia...ahaa...baru aku dpt selami maksud lirik tu....baguskan mcm ni....lagu kadang² menceritakan perasaan seseorang...pastu aku baca entry pasal dia kene dumped ngan xgf dia...ade lagu sudirman - jauh di sudut hati...cecepat aku dload...sebbek que tak pjg...cepat la aku dpt lagu tu...abis dload aku denga sambil baca balik cite dia kene dumped tu...blom abis baca...aku rasa menitik airmata aku...sambil menghayati cerite dia sambil aku denga lagu jauh di sudut hati..rasa lemah jap...tetiba aku rasa mcm aku kat tempat dia plak...sedih la kalo org buat mcm tu kat kite...kite beria-ia sayang kat org tp org senang² je dumped kite...dah la dia couple dr skolah...mesti byk kenangan...sian...hmm...lirik lagu ni pon satu...part last skali tu nafas terakhir ku....aduhhhh...bertambah² sedih aku...tak sanggup aku nak denga lagu ni lagi...sedih sgt...ade jugak entry yg happy cthnye cerite dia ngan tunang dia sha(sha ni takleh bercakap,diorang berkomunikasi guna sign language..eh aku tau ske² tau!)...memule dia rapat ngan sha,saat dia jatuh hati kat sha,masa dia bercinta ngan sha...dan bile diorang bertunang...yg sedihnye tak sempat nak melangsungkan perkahwinan..lee pegi dulu...planning blan august tp dia pegi blan april...hmmmm aku dah sedih balik :(
aktiviti aku takde ape sgt arini...aku masuk bilik je igt nak buat taik mata...tp bile dah jumpe pc mmg aku akan online la walocemane penat skalipon...aku online sejam dua sambil sms ngan zol...pastu aku baring² teruss kroohhhh krehhhh kroohhh krehhhh tak sedar hape....sedar² je aku denga bunyi hp aku...tgk bob call...malas aku nak angkat...aku takmo buat dia berharap...aku takmo dipanggil heartbreaker...dahla...experience yg lepas² tu buat aku pk dua kali sblom aku buat pape...lebih² lg hal berkaitan ngan hati ngan perasaan ni...maybe pada aku ape yg aku buat tu btol tp tak pada org lain pulak...kadang² susah nak jangka ape yg org lain pk dan rasa...
mase aku sms ngan zol...zol basekan diri dia abg...rasa pelik sbb aku kene basekan diri aku,saya,hehe...aku tak penah bersopan bile bersembang ngan zol tetibe aku kene ubahkan sume tu sbb dia basekan abg...lgpon patut kot aku blaja hormati dia sbb dia dah 30+ pon...bape plus aku tatau...aku tanye tp dia tak jawap...dia jawap pon main²...bleh plak dia kate jap 33 jap 30 jap 31...byk btol besday dia...dia sorang lahir byk kali...ehehhe...biarlah dia...ade benda kene rahsia...ikut org la ape dia nak rahsia btol tak....
mase aku tido,aku mimpi balik ape yg mak aku bebelkan kat aku smalam...erkk sabtu malam aritu...bapak aku siap nak ceraikan mak aku pasal tu...lawaknye aku sikit pon tak sedih tp aku menyokong plak tindakan bapak aku tu...adaka patut!
aku bgn dlm kol 9.30 mlm kot...aku terjaga pon sbb adik aku ketuk pintu mintak duit dia...dia nak gi makan kat kedai so aku pon suh dia tunggu aku,aku nak ikut skali...aku cuci muke gosok gigi lelaju pastu sikat rambut terus kuar ngan adik aku...kitorang makan kat kedai mek kelate
balik dr makan,aku online balik...aku surf ape yg patut..aku rasa boring nak mampos but still aku merewang dlm internet ni carik ape aku tatau...sume blog aku masuk...bace ape yg patut...pastu aku masuk blog sherita...beso pekataan no entry dia...ahaii ape aku nak baca ni...pastu aku scroll bawah blog dia aku teringat kat blog ava goddess...dia pon tak update blog dia gak...aku dah mule sesak napas...ape aku nak baca nih(matilaa exam ari rabu kate takde ape nak baca)*hikhik aku suke btol ayat ponen ni...
last² aku teringat kat blog yna...last aku masuk blog dia ade entry pasal arwah adik dia...hmm...yna yg ilang someone yg dia sayang tp aku yg rasa sedihnye...penyedih btol aku ni...aku sedih je tp tak nangis...yna update blog...aku baca sampai part dia baca blog pemuda blabla...ntah aku lupe ayat dia tp aku igt dia kate blog pemuda tu je...aku baca abis entry yna tu...pastu aku click kat pemuda tu nye blog plak..
pemuda ni rupenye dah meninggal.....hatikubicara.blogspot.com itu dia punye add blog dia..aku bace sume entry dia except review pasal movie ngan lirik lagu ngan poem ke ape tah...aku tak larat nak baca sbb base indonesia ni tak bape nak same ngan base melayu...bleh kate pusing gak la nak paham...tp arwah ni peminat setia filem ngan lagu² indon...kalo dah minat sudah tentu dia paham jalan cerita filem ngan lirik lagu yg dia tgh hayati...mmg mendalam maksud dia...utk org yg paham akan pahamlah...byk cerita pasal kesedihan dan kekecewaan dia(arwah lee)...memang kena ngan kaler blog dia...kaler itam..gloomy...dr ape yg aku baca,aku rasa kesal sbb dia pilih jalan yg salah utk selesaikan masalah...ntah nape aku sendiri tak terpikir nak selesaikan masalah aku mcm tu...syukur la aku waras lg dlm umur aku nak mencapai suku abad ni...syukur jugak tuhan sayangkan aku...
sume org penah lalui first love ni...aku pon....first love aku dgn husband org!yg aku tau status dia after a year aku couple...bayangkanlah...tp aku bleh moved on ngan idop aku walopon seksa....aku jadik rangka bergerak jap...kurus keding aku....sian je mcm mak bapak tak bagi makan je...tp bkn la aku salahkan dia...tak...tp aku tekejut tindakan drastik dia sploh taun yg lepas...skarang baru aku paham kenapa org kate kalau sayangkan org tinggal sikit sayang pada diri sendiri sbb kalau dikecewakan takde la merana sgt....sayang diri sendiri baru sayang org lain...skarang aku paham...
dlm byk² lagu yg dia suke tu aku ade satu dlm mp3list aku...lagu agnes monica & ahmad dhani cinta mati...serius aku dload lagu ni dulu bukan sbb aku suke...sbb aku tgk ramai yg dload kat #mp3zs...aku pon gatal dload gak...bila aku denga sikit pon takleh nak masuk dlm tinge aku...mmg aku tak minat la....tp bile aku terbaca dlm blog dia ade lagu ni aku terus denga balik lg tu...sah!aku mmg tak minat....aku takpaham ape yg cuba diceritakan oleh lagu tu...aku denga lagu tu sambil baca blog dia...ahaa...baru aku dpt selami maksud lirik tu....baguskan mcm ni....lagu kadang² menceritakan perasaan seseorang...pastu aku baca entry pasal dia kene dumped ngan xgf dia...ade lagu sudirman - jauh di sudut hati...cecepat aku dload...sebbek que tak pjg...cepat la aku dpt lagu tu...abis dload aku denga sambil baca balik cite dia kene dumped tu...blom abis baca...aku rasa menitik airmata aku...sambil menghayati cerite dia sambil aku denga lagu jauh di sudut hati..rasa lemah jap...tetiba aku rasa mcm aku kat tempat dia plak...sedih la kalo org buat mcm tu kat kite...kite beria-ia sayang kat org tp org senang² je dumped kite...dah la dia couple dr skolah...mesti byk kenangan...sian...hmm...lirik lagu ni pon satu...part last skali tu nafas terakhir ku....aduhhhh...bertambah² sedih aku...tak sanggup aku nak denga lagu ni lagi...sedih sgt...ade jugak entry yg happy cthnye cerite dia ngan tunang dia sha(sha ni takleh bercakap,diorang berkomunikasi guna sign language..eh aku tau ske² tau!)...memule dia rapat ngan sha,saat dia jatuh hati kat sha,masa dia bercinta ngan sha...dan bile diorang bertunang...yg sedihnye tak sempat nak melangsungkan perkahwinan..lee pegi dulu...planning blan august tp dia pegi blan april...hmmmm aku dah sedih balik :(
iris
kau masih ku cintai... sungguh!
dari awal dulu hingga hari ini...
aku pasti, seyakinnya pasti
kau lah satu untuk ku...
kau masih dewi hatiku... sungguh!
biar sejuta tahun hilang di hari...
usah gusar, sayang... usah ragu
aku milikmu...
cintaku, jika kau tanya pada bintang
kemilauan sinar takkan hilang
akan aku sinari duniamu
moga terpadam sangsimu...
cintaku, jika kau lihat tingginya awan
takkan tercakar tinggi cintaku
hanya hatiku tahu apa mahuku
dan duniaku pastinya milikmu
hingga ke akhir hayatku...
kau masih ku cintai... sungguh!
dari hari pertama kau ku nikahi...
aku pasti, yakin dan pasti
engkau milikku...
dari awal dulu hingga hari ini...
aku pasti, seyakinnya pasti
kau lah satu untuk ku...
kau masih dewi hatiku... sungguh!
biar sejuta tahun hilang di hari...
usah gusar, sayang... usah ragu
aku milikmu...
cintaku, jika kau tanya pada bintang
kemilauan sinar takkan hilang
akan aku sinari duniamu
moga terpadam sangsimu...
cintaku, jika kau lihat tingginya awan
takkan tercakar tinggi cintaku
hanya hatiku tahu apa mahuku
dan duniaku pastinya milikmu
hingga ke akhir hayatku...
kau masih ku cintai... sungguh!
dari hari pertama kau ku nikahi...
aku pasti, yakin dan pasti
engkau milikku...
suralaya dalam d major
Getar senandung Suralaya menggamit
Di ruang sanubari rindu menghimpit
Wajah kasih ku melirik senyum tangis
Sukar untuk ku tangkis
Getar senandung Suralaya menggamit
Di sudut perasaan cinta menjerit
Bisik kasih ku gemersik makin jelas
Makin rasa sebegitu ikhlas
*Kata kata mu bagaikan sinar yang ditelan kabus
Yang sempat ku dengar
Hanya madah Hanya kata
Selamat tinggal
Aku tersentak langsung tersedar
Cuaca dingin menadah hati yang kian rawan
Terbayang seribu kemungkinan
Tergerak ku mendakap kau pun hilang
Dari pandangan...
Getar senandung Suralaya menggamit
Di sudut perasaan cinta menjerit
Bisik kasih ku gemersik makin rangsang
Makin rasa sebegitu terang
Aku tersentak langsung tersedar
dingin menadah hati yang kian rawan
Terbayang seribu kemungkinan
Tergerak ku mendakap kau pun hilang
Bukan beralah kecewa kerana cinta
Tapi berjuta kecewa kerana rindu
pedoman ku hanya satu
pegangan hidup dan mati ku
ingin terasa kau bersama
Aku tersentak langsung tersedar
Cuaca dingin menadah hati yang kian
Terbayang seribu kemungkinan
Tergerak ku mendakap kau pun hilang
Aku tersentak langsung tersedar
Cuaca dingin menadah hati yang kian rawan
Terbayang seribu kemungkinan
Tergerak ku mendakap kau pun hilang
Dari pandangan...
Aku tersentak langsung tersedar
Cuaca dingin menadah hati yang kian
Terbayang seribu kemungkinan
Tergerak ku mendakap kau pun hilang
Aku tersentak langsung tersedar
Cuaca dingin menadah hati yang kian rawan
Terbayang seribu kemungkinan
Tergerak ku mendakap kau pun hilang
Dari pandangan...
Friday, April 28, 2006
Thursday, April 27, 2006
common mistakes men make
Some men don't realize that certain factors will deter a woman from accepting an advancement or invitation from a total stranger. Here are the top common mistakes men make when approaching a woman:
1- Forgetting her comfort zoneJust because you know you're a nice guy, that doesn't mean she will. It is important to realize that most women will be on their guard when you first approach them. This is normal, and the important thing is for you to come across as a harmless guy. A little humor usually helps.
2- Trying to fool her The second biggest error most men make is that they don't give women enough credit and respect. Most men think that they can fool a woman into giving them their number. Women know that you're trying to pick them up, so don't beat around the bush. Be direct and let them know exactly what you want. By doing so, you'll come across as a confident and straightforward guy.
3- Approaching without a planSome people can improvise successfully, but regardless of the case, having a plan always helps your chances of coming across as a person she might consider dating.
4- Acting like a pervert A lot of men sabotage their chances with women by keeping their eyes aimed down at their breasts. Instead, keep your eyes locked onto hers. You want her to think that you're the knight in shining armor who's going to sweep her off her feet -- not the dog who's just sniffing any old fire hydrant ready to mark his territory.
1- Forgetting her comfort zoneJust because you know you're a nice guy, that doesn't mean she will. It is important to realize that most women will be on their guard when you first approach them. This is normal, and the important thing is for you to come across as a harmless guy. A little humor usually helps.
2- Trying to fool her The second biggest error most men make is that they don't give women enough credit and respect. Most men think that they can fool a woman into giving them their number. Women know that you're trying to pick them up, so don't beat around the bush. Be direct and let them know exactly what you want. By doing so, you'll come across as a confident and straightforward guy.
3- Approaching without a planSome people can improvise successfully, but regardless of the case, having a plan always helps your chances of coming across as a person she might consider dating.
4- Acting like a pervert A lot of men sabotage their chances with women by keeping their eyes aimed down at their breasts. Instead, keep your eyes locked onto hers. You want her to think that you're the knight in shining armor who's going to sweep her off her feet -- not the dog who's just sniffing any old fire hydrant ready to mark his territory.
how soon do you let a woman know that you are "interested" in her?
Here's a powerful tip: If you treat a woman more like a friend, rather than someone you're romantically interested in, this can really dial up the attraction. A friend of mine recently told me about a woman that was so stunning he honestly didn't think he had a chance with her, so he thought he'd just kick back and have fun while they were together.He didn't try to impress her. He didn't make any moves. He didn't act clingy or needy, because he didn't think he was even in the "game."What was the result?Well, this detached, non-wuss behavior worked like magic to super-charge the attraction, and actually set the stage for a long-term relationship.Attractive women are used to guys acting clingy and super-interested from day 1, and it's a huge turnoff.So instead, lean back a bit, be cool, and then enjoy your results.
*btol ke...taktau ler pulak
*btol ke...taktau ler pulak
signs of love
*She is rarely jealous and possessive of you.
*She respects your space and doesn't interrogate you.
*She is always happy for you and looks out for your best interests at all times.
*She trusts you wholeheartedly.
*She wants the best for you and is selfless.
*The two of you can go a while without sex and your relationship does not weaken.
*She prides herself in knowing everything about you.
*She is always there for you.
*Her face lights up and glows when she sees you.
The most important thing to remember is that actions speak much louder than words; in fact, they speak volumes.
So even if you're girlfriend does not actually say that she loves you in a verbal testimony, don't assume that she doesn't love you or that she does not feel "love". She may just have trouble vocalizing it, or she simply isn't aware that she loves you at the moment.
Her actions, and the time the two of you spend together, should be a clear indication of her feelings for you. Love is a strong word and should not be used in vain or abused. So, even if it's not love as of yet, it doesn't mean that the two of you don't have something extremely special that everyone else would love to possess.
*She respects your space and doesn't interrogate you.
*She is always happy for you and looks out for your best interests at all times.
*She trusts you wholeheartedly.
*She wants the best for you and is selfless.
*The two of you can go a while without sex and your relationship does not weaken.
*She prides herself in knowing everything about you.
*She is always there for you.
*Her face lights up and glows when she sees you.
The most important thing to remember is that actions speak much louder than words; in fact, they speak volumes.
So even if you're girlfriend does not actually say that she loves you in a verbal testimony, don't assume that she doesn't love you or that she does not feel "love". She may just have trouble vocalizing it, or she simply isn't aware that she loves you at the moment.
Her actions, and the time the two of you spend together, should be a clear indication of her feelings for you. Love is a strong word and should not be used in vain or abused. So, even if it's not love as of yet, it doesn't mean that the two of you don't have something extremely special that everyone else would love to possess.
top 10: things you should never tell a woman
Number 10 - Your family hates her.This is an unfortunate situation, yes. But if you tell her, you'll only fuel the fire by making her angry or insecure. If you don't agree with your family's hesitations about her, then politely ask them to butt out. Just do what you can to make them change their minds and hope they'll warm up to her with time.
Number 9 - You have insecurities.Do you feel jealous of your best friend's looks or his sweet new car? Or do you envy your girlfriend's status, job or salary? Everyone has their share of insecurities, but in the dating world, it's vital that you keep these insecurities under your hat. One of the most important things a woman looks in a man is confidence, and if she sees that you are constantly insecure and jealous, you won't seem so poised. So if you can't put a stop to your insecurities and your green-eyed monster, at least try to keep it to yourself.
Number 8 - You flirt with other women.If you are a flirty type of guy, she probably knows it already. In fact, you probably flirted with her before you got together. Having said that, she doesn't need to hear the list of women that you flirted with all day, nor does she need to hear about the list of women that flirted with you. If it really is harmless flirting, then why make her worry about it?
Number 7 - You have wimpy behavior.Okay, so you don't kill spiders, you run away from fights and maybe you even cry during movies. Unfortunately for you, the cliché is true: Women like strong men. So telling her that you're afraid of an itty-bitty insect or that you can't stand heights isn't going to work in your favor. Naturally, if you are going to be with her in the long term, she might learn some of these little factoids as you go along. But do your best not to divulge them all in the beginning.
Number 6 - You compare her to your ex-girlfriend in bed.Needless to say, everyone does this; she is probably also comparing you to her ex to some extent. But do avoid offering her specific details about your past conquests, specifically the fact that your past lover was better than her in bed. In fact, even if you are telling her that she is better than your ex, this is a bad can of worms to open. No woman wants to be compared to another, especially in the sexual department.
Number 5 - You talk to your mother too often.Do you talk to mom several times a day? To a woman you're dating, that could be a little intimidating. A woman doesn't want to feel like she's competing with your mother, or worse, that you're dependent on mommy. So just keep that cute little secret to yourself.
Number 4 - You have not-so-cool hobbies.So you might keep a collection of Transformers in your underwear drawer or be fascinated by things like Faberge eggs. But you have to realize that it is unlikely that she will appreciate your wacky interests and hobbies. Don't fool yourself into thinking that such quirks are charming; chances are, they'll just be a real turnoff.
Number 3 - You don't like her girlfriends.What's the only thing worse than having the hots for her girlfriends? You guessed it: talking badly about her girlfriends in front of her. Or even divulging that you think her friends are anything but sweet and fabulous people. Most of her girlfriends have been in her life longer than you have, so talking negatively about them probably won't work out too well for you. If she doesn't end things with you entirely, she's sure to at least become defensive and angry about this -- so if you absolutely need to trash her girlfriends, just make sure she's not within earshot.
Number 2 - You've done shameful things in the past.You might think that the two of you are close enough for you to reveal these little tidbits. But unfortunately, she'll never be ready to hear that you've cheated on past girlfriends or that you've enjoyed private dances at strip clubs. Even non-sexual shameful acts that you've committed -- like theft, bullying or betrayals -- are not things that you want to divulge. While you might want to get some of these secrets off your chest, she will never forget them. And you'll come off looking like a less moral or honest person as a result.
Number 1 - You find one of her friends smoking hot.So you think that blonde friend of hers is cute? Fair enough. But do have the sense not to mention it to your girlfriend -- not even as a joke. She won't find it funny; actually, she will probably be angry and hurt, and in the long run, she'll never trust you around her friends. You might think that your girlfriend is secure enough to handle this piece of information, but let me tell you that she's not. Most girls aren't, so don't risk it.
Number 9 - You have insecurities.Do you feel jealous of your best friend's looks or his sweet new car? Or do you envy your girlfriend's status, job or salary? Everyone has their share of insecurities, but in the dating world, it's vital that you keep these insecurities under your hat. One of the most important things a woman looks in a man is confidence, and if she sees that you are constantly insecure and jealous, you won't seem so poised. So if you can't put a stop to your insecurities and your green-eyed monster, at least try to keep it to yourself.
Number 8 - You flirt with other women.If you are a flirty type of guy, she probably knows it already. In fact, you probably flirted with her before you got together. Having said that, she doesn't need to hear the list of women that you flirted with all day, nor does she need to hear about the list of women that flirted with you. If it really is harmless flirting, then why make her worry about it?
Number 7 - You have wimpy behavior.Okay, so you don't kill spiders, you run away from fights and maybe you even cry during movies. Unfortunately for you, the cliché is true: Women like strong men. So telling her that you're afraid of an itty-bitty insect or that you can't stand heights isn't going to work in your favor. Naturally, if you are going to be with her in the long term, she might learn some of these little factoids as you go along. But do your best not to divulge them all in the beginning.
Number 6 - You compare her to your ex-girlfriend in bed.Needless to say, everyone does this; she is probably also comparing you to her ex to some extent. But do avoid offering her specific details about your past conquests, specifically the fact that your past lover was better than her in bed. In fact, even if you are telling her that she is better than your ex, this is a bad can of worms to open. No woman wants to be compared to another, especially in the sexual department.
Number 5 - You talk to your mother too often.Do you talk to mom several times a day? To a woman you're dating, that could be a little intimidating. A woman doesn't want to feel like she's competing with your mother, or worse, that you're dependent on mommy. So just keep that cute little secret to yourself.
Number 4 - You have not-so-cool hobbies.So you might keep a collection of Transformers in your underwear drawer or be fascinated by things like Faberge eggs. But you have to realize that it is unlikely that she will appreciate your wacky interests and hobbies. Don't fool yourself into thinking that such quirks are charming; chances are, they'll just be a real turnoff.
Number 3 - You don't like her girlfriends.What's the only thing worse than having the hots for her girlfriends? You guessed it: talking badly about her girlfriends in front of her. Or even divulging that you think her friends are anything but sweet and fabulous people. Most of her girlfriends have been in her life longer than you have, so talking negatively about them probably won't work out too well for you. If she doesn't end things with you entirely, she's sure to at least become defensive and angry about this -- so if you absolutely need to trash her girlfriends, just make sure she's not within earshot.
Number 2 - You've done shameful things in the past.You might think that the two of you are close enough for you to reveal these little tidbits. But unfortunately, she'll never be ready to hear that you've cheated on past girlfriends or that you've enjoyed private dances at strip clubs. Even non-sexual shameful acts that you've committed -- like theft, bullying or betrayals -- are not things that you want to divulge. While you might want to get some of these secrets off your chest, she will never forget them. And you'll come off looking like a less moral or honest person as a result.
Number 1 - You find one of her friends smoking hot.So you think that blonde friend of hers is cute? Fair enough. But do have the sense not to mention it to your girlfriend -- not even as a joke. She won't find it funny; actually, she will probably be angry and hurt, and in the long run, she'll never trust you around her friends. You might think that your girlfriend is secure enough to handle this piece of information, but let me tell you that she's not. Most girls aren't, so don't risk it.
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