Saturday, May 06, 2006

6 days ago...

Hi mr bloggy (**,)

dah lame aku tak update blog...6 ari tu cukup lame dah untuk aku ceritekan balik ape yg dah jadi...kalo aku muatkan dlm satu entry yg same dah jadi cam rojak mapley dah,kan mr bloggy kan...entry ni aku lebih nak summarize 6 ari punye cite...before that i should say Thank you Lord...aku lalui 6 ari yg cukup tenang,bleh senyum,mimpi yg indah²,no worries,aku bleh bercakap straight to the point..satu perkara yg agak sukar aku buat sbb aku kalau nak sampaikan ape saje dr dlm ati aku selalu je tak sampai....selalu kuar tajuk...sbb dlm proses nak menceritakan tu aku sering pk mcm²...bile keadaan camtu jadi...aku jadik kelam-kabut...selalu sgt benda ni jadi...

salah satu cara aku nak luahkan ape yg terbuku dlm ati aku(eceyyy mcm novel plak) ialah tulis segala ape yg aku rasa kat atas kertas then bakar,aku citekan pada org yg bleh paham atau kenal sape aku jadi ini memudahkan diorang paham ape aku nak sampaikan,aku berdoa sambil nangis²...

bape ari lepas aku cite pasal financial barring/outstanding balances aku...betapa susahnye ati aku masa tu...cite kat org pon org takleh tolong...ape aku buat aku diamkan je...cite kat parents urghh tak sanggup aku...tak sampai ati...tp 6 ari yg lepas sblom exam start dan pada masa yg sama aku start practical training,sumenye dlm keadaan smooth...aku handle problem ngan relax...tade jiwa kacau...org disekeliling motivated me...n yes im motivated after that...enthusiasm kate kakak aku...tetibe aku ade semangat nak handle problem aku...life aku...takde org lain except God...

walopon aku takleh masuk exam...dan aku bakal menghadapi 6 exam(6 lagik...)sekaligus pd short sem depan...aku orait lg...let bygone be bygone...aku pk pasal fees aku dulu...baru aku settle yg lain²...slow²...man(coursemate aku) jumpe dean bba ciklan....ciklan bg nasihat kat man then man sampaikan kat aku ape yg ciklan bgtau...ciklan ckp kadang² kite kena lalui path idop kite...kite tak perasan ape yg kite buat tu berpunca dr silap kite sendiri,kalau tidak pon...laluilah ngan tenang,be a man...kate ciklan kat man...pekataan be a man tu(walopon aku pompuan)aku rasa dah cukup buat aku relief..btol!ape yg ciklan kate tu mmg ade btol nye...

aku sebok bercerite kat member² aku sume aku takdpt masuk exam...bile aku pk balik...kalo aku tak amik skarang bknnye aku fail...n i have time to study...n i have time to work...tak semestinye diorang dah amik final diorang bleh score...lgpon kalo aku marah² maki² unitar silap tu berpunca dr aku...mmg salah aku...kalopon aku dikire malang...aku malang sbb takleh convo taun ni,aku takleh teruskan practical aku(ni yg paling aku kesal) tu je...takpe bkn aku takleh convo taun depan dan bukannye aku takleh practical pon nanti...

aku dah tulis letter yg aku nak postpone practical training...aku kaw tim ngan kak liza n kak liza pon tolong aku(syukurnye ade org yg masih paham situasi aku)pastu kak liza call manager hr encik din bgtau pasal problem aku dan cik din kate its okay...nanti u dtg buat practical u balik ye...aduh tetibe aku rasa mcm aku dihargai...ade je org baik² keliling aku ni...wujud rupanya...kak liza offer aku buat part time kat tempat practical aku tu aku terima je...time ni aku takleh berkira...aku yg nak keje aku nak duit...so aku kene carik keje bkn keje carik aku...aku takleh demand skang ni...aku kene grab je ape² offer....adam(member chat aku)penah nasihat kat aku...kalo buat keje ati mesti kene ikhlas..jgn bersungut buat keje, ati kene bersih...susah sikit takpe...nanti ko dpt ganjaran yg ko tak sangka²...aku simpan kate² adam tu...thanks adam!

tpkan dlm 6 arini gak la...aku ade buat keje jahat!maha hebat!haha...aku nyesal gak tp benda dah lepas nak buek camno...aku erkk tah taktau nak ckp pe...hehe biarlah...

oh before i end my meroyan aku nak cite pasal 'horror'scope aku arini...aku rasa mcm kene ngan aku je...eh bukan aku kate nak stop baca 'horror'scope ke?wakakakak ckp tak serupa bikin...


The Bottom Line
You may be required to accept things as they are -- you've gone as far as you can.

In Detail
There is a real freedom in letting go, so why don't you give it a whirl today? You've been motivated by good things, but your ideas and input are falling on deaf ears. Save your energy for someone who really wants to hear what you have to say -- and accept the fact that some people have to walk their own path in their own way. You've done as much as you can for now. Set yourself free from the obligations and responsibilities you've been imposing on yourself.

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